mars and venus.

I might be hard to get, or enjoy playing that game, but we both know my smile can't lie. Once I love you, I'll love you and I swear nothing will compare.

I always thought that I needed to change myself as a partner, and as a girlfriend. I needed to be more like this girl or more sweet, more caring, more afraid to tell my boyfriend to fuck off if he was being a jerk, be more all about whoever I was dating. That's just not me as a person, at all. I was raised to be independent, raised to stand on my own. Raised to never depend on a man for anything. In retrospect every boy I have ever depended on has let me down, this made me go and seek my own personal joys even when I had a boyfriend because a boyfriend or even my own dad has never been 100% reliable. If I wasn't able to seek my own happiness, I wouldn't be able to be happy in a relationship.

I was reading Jake's blog and would like to state a girl's point of view, or at least this girls.. Every girl wants to be called hot, pretty, beautiful, whatever. Every girl wants to be their boyfriend's trophy so to speak, but we also do want to be loved(obviously.. don't we all?). No, most guys can't mix the two, but when your boyfriend tells you "damn girl you look so fucking gorgeous" then of course you want to walk around being his gorgeous girlfriend and you want him to be proud of you and to show you off because that particular day you look exceptionally good. On the other hand, you want him to hold you the same when you haven't washed your hair for 3 days and haven't showered for one. Girls also want a boyfriend that is going to miss them when they are gone, crawl back into bed and say "I missed you, I was thinking about you the whole time I was gone". We can also get into definitions of hot, beautiful, pretty, cute whatever. And that brings on a whole new discussion but I think the point is, you are right, most guys are scum, but most girls are looking to look good, at least to some extent, and not all girls care if their boyfriend actually cares what they have to say, that's why they spend hours getting ready, wear pounds of make up, and let their titties hang out, they need to feel attractive.